Seeing God

I remember one of the first conversations I had when I returned to ACU after my little brother was diagnosed. A guy I worked with at the time, Brandon, had recently lost a family member to cancer and he told me something that left me….terrified to say the least.

“You will come face to face with God.”

I just stared at him. He didn’t explain and I didn’t ask what he meant, but I wondered in that moment how much my relationship with the Lord was going to change because of this. And would it be a good change? Is facing God a good thing? What’s going to happen to us?

As I sit here typing this, I wish with my whole heart that I could say that I had been brave. I wish I could say that I had been there for everything and had seen everything. I know, I know, wishing in vain, but what I CAN say is that Brandon was right. I did see God. Through brokenness, through fear, in the darkest part of our lives, I saw Him. And those times will each a be a story I will share here.

Family Pic

This kid. He will amaze you. Joey was an incredible human being and I don’t know why God allows some things to happen, perhaps for His glory, but I guess we aren’t called to understand everything. Only to be faithful.

“I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; Be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” Psalm 27:13-14

Much love.

-Tina

 

 

4 thoughts on “Seeing God

    1. There are so many questions I still have, so many fears too. And I missed so much.
      I’m hoping my mom will one day be able to write about coming face to face with God. I think she still does face Him, maybe she always will.

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  1. Losing someone you love to cancer… I’ve been there. I wish I had grasped the gravity of it all when it was happening, and not now so many years later.
    Your family photo is beautiful. The love y’all share is obvious. Much love to all of the Tamez family!

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  2. Tina, I’m touched and so glad you can share your experience with others. Joey was an amazing young man. I had the awful opportunity of accessing his mediport and I hated sticking him with a needle. I would ask him if it hurt and he just smiled his big smile and would say no. I always felt he was try to reassure me that it was ok. I wasn’t there all the time but when I was present, I never heard him complain or whine. If anyone came face to face with God it was Joey. Love you Tina

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