I remember one of the first conversations I had when I returned to ACU after my little brother was diagnosed. A guy I worked with at the time, Brandon, had recently lost a family member to cancer and he told me something that left me….terrified to say the least.
“You will come face to face with God.”
I just stared at him. He didn’t explain and I didn’t ask what he meant, but I wondered in that moment how much my relationship with the Lord was going to change because of this. And would it be a good change? Is facing God a good thing? What’s going to happen to us?
As I sit here typing this, I wish with my whole heart that I could say that I had been brave. I wish I could say that I had been there for everything and had seen everything. I know, I know, wishing in vain, but what I CAN say is that Brandon was right. I did see God. Through brokenness, through fear, in the darkest part of our lives, I saw Him. And those times will each a be a story I will share here.
This kid. He will amaze you. Joey was an incredible human being and I don’t know why God allows some things to happen, perhaps for His glory, but I guess we aren’t called to understand everything. Only to be faithful.
“I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; Be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” Psalm 27:13-14